[netzona]

I had a session last night in which I disclosed this 30-year secret. I pretty much fell to pieces. At the end of the session, my counselor informed me that she was going out of town for the long holiday weekend, as are all the members of my family and most of my friends. I'm concerned that I will hurt myself, not tell anyone, feel ashamed, and then the whole cycle will begin again. Any ideas?

[aintgotnotime4u]

What happened to you wasn't your fault. The only reason you carry it with you is you feel you are to blame. Everyone in the world could forgive youu, but until you forgive yourself the burden will be yours to bear.Let it go and free yourself!

[pilgram92003]

I kept the secret for over 50 years,I don't have enough space to tell you how much it effected my life but I'll tell you briefly when I finally let it out. At 58 years old I ended up in a drug re-hab and a fellow came in and shared about the same thing, the courage of that one man caused 6 other people to give him support and shared about their experience, 23 people were in that room and we opened up, the healing process was started. That was 3 years ago and since then have shared about it in front of some times a few hundred people at 12 step meetings, always get people tell me"thanks I been there"peace

[DODA]

Relax..breathe..are you feeling suicidal now ? Are you cutting ? Be honest. If you are you need to seek treatment (hospitalization) now ,at an in-patient program at a mental health hospital. If you are not and are just upset because you feel your dr. Bailed on you, then start talking about how you feel with some one close to you. Set up an appointment for as soon as she returns. You and she need to resolve these feeling you are experiencing as soon, or you will not trust her to be there for you. In the future you might want to ask ahead of time if this would be a good time for the both of you get into some very intense issues. So that you will trust her to be there for you if needed.don't let what happened stop you from moving forward, you have just taken 2 very big steps,disclosing a secret , and asking for help ! Keep stepping you can do it ! Go to the hospital if you need to that why they are there !

sexual abuse is one of the most difficult scars to get rid of especially child abuse,and when"we"are finally able to tell someone about it it is as if a ton of bricks have been lifted from us.I to have faced this problem , the problem of accepting the fact that what happened was not my fault,it happened , but it became a part of who i wa even as a child,along with the physical abuse there is almost always some form of brainwashing of the child.something to convince the child that if they tell someone something bad will happen to them or someone they care about.along with sexual abuse there is FEAR, that by itself is an ugly place to be in.i am 56yrs old and kept the secret from comming out until my mother died in 2002.because of the shame it would bring to her.there are still many secrets i hold about this kind of thing in my life , it was as much an everyday thing a sgetting up to go to the bathroom.but the real truth is that if we don't share with others about this kind of thing then we to become part of the deciet that hurt us.and we need to tell others to support others facing this problem. it is truely in the having someone there who knows how you feel, exactly how you feel this is where the healing come from in helping other over the bridges we have already crossed ,may God Bless and keep you.PS PRAYER always helps

I know how you feel because I am dealing with the same thing you are but hurting yourself is not the answer. I have caused self-injury and I have hurt myself pretty bad. If you can't control your impulses to hurt yourself, then go to the hospital so they can look after you for a couple of days until your family returns or if there is a friend who is willing to come and stay with you or you can go to them then by all means go and go right now. My heart goes out to you and all of us that are hurting from the pain someone else caused us. Best wishes.