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Originally Posted by george
I'm 16 and do not want to live any longer. There is so much wrong with me, mentally and physically that i see no use whatsoever in continuing this useless struggle. For months iv'e been having bad stomach pain, causing weakness, fevers, diarrhea, severe fatigue and nausea. I was informed today that I cannot see anyone about it till June. This is interfering with my school work, causing me more stress. It is also causing problems in my everyday life as well (such as being unable to find the energy to work out).On top of this, I also likely have schizo affective disorder or bipolar, but I cant get treated because there is no one available. I might get into someone soon (after months of waiting), but I heard hes a moron.The school does nothing to help, just tells me ill ave to"wait it out", and i find my parents just as unhelpful.In addition i'm overweight. Not morbidly obese, but still fat enough. Regardless of how healthy, or how little i eat, or how much i exercise nothing helps. I eat less and exercise more (at least before the stomach problems) then the average skinny person.So I really don't see any reason to stay alive, should I just get on with it and kill myself?p.s.I don't want to be preached at, that generally makes my depression worse.I don't think this will just get better. This started around 4 years ago, and has gotten progressively worse. I find it hard to reason because of the depression, and I think i may be at the start of psychosis.For stomach problems, meds and diet have been ruled out, as have bacteria, and parasites, and internal bleeding.
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Hi George, I know this post has been since 2009, so I hope you are doing very well now. I just want to encourage you and let you know that you are not alone. Keep courage my friend.