Don't out-guess the doctor, but you can help him/her by working together. First, if you're not being treated by a pscyhiatrist [especially an Orthomolecular Psych], that's what you need (an Internal Medicine Doctor is not equipped to do you the best job.In your case, this means talking with the doc about how you are not reacting well to your medications.You are correct that meditation can help you relax, bu it will not cure you. Beware of cults; ask your local librarian to refer you to the right books. Read about meditation&try what you like. If that works, OK! (If not, ask a health-store about someone who does meditation).Jut do it! Good luck!